2010

Heya!!!! It's been too long since i last wrote a post. Sorry, i've been busysysysysy. But I'm back for good:D

I can't believe in just 9 days it's going to be 2011. It's all just going too fast don't you think?? A lot of things happened in 2010. Good stuffs, and bad stuffs too. I lost a couple of my best friends in the whole wide world this year. I hurt a lot of my friends. I lied to the people i care about. Fell for strangers that ended up hurting me. Got heaps of trouble in school. Got on cyber-fights. Fought with my teachers. Got in trouble with my seniors, juniors and my friends too. Getting bad grades. Found a couple of people that secretly hate me. Being scolded by a lot of people.

But i also met true friends in this year. I met these guys

and these guys too

I also went on my first ever over night field trip with my friends on 8th grade! We went to Jogja for 4 days and 3 nights.

I also went on a Euro trip to the Netherlands, Belgium, and Paris.

Got braces on!

My grandparents' 50year wedding anniversary on June 13th, 2010.

And last but definitely not least......I met this guy. My 25July2010 guy:-)

Well a lot, let me repeat, a LOT had happened this year. I've done so much bad things and failed on a lot of stuffs this year and learnt from all of them and i wish to not repeat them in 2011. But i did succeed on a couple of things and did pretty nice deeds this year. I really hope to be a much better person next year. I hope I'll get in the school that i like. I hope I'll be more religious. I hope to be a better daughter, sister, friend, and girlfriend. I hope of big things in 2011!

It may not be a perfect year but i gotta say 2010 had brought me wonderful memories that i'll cherish forever. This may be one of the best years of my life. I'd like to thank everyone that made this year special, and say sorry to those who's year had sucked because of me.

Lastly, happy almost new year everyone! Toodles!

Confession.

I'm sorry.
Sometimes, I get a little jealous thinking that someone else
could make you happier than I could.
I guess it's my insecurities acting up.
Because I know I'm not the prettiest, smartest, or most fun and exciting.
But, I do know that no matter how hard and long you look;
you'll never find somebody that loves you more than I do.

via tumblr.

Tartig:)

HEY! hyper lho hari ini gatau kenapa haha okay hari ini gue mau membahas sekolah gue, Tartig. pasti kalian pada tanya 'ha? Tartig? apatuh' wkwk emang kok banyak yang bilang gitu, tp tetep aja gue bangga sekolah disitu.

Ini tahun terakhir gue di Tartig. padahal seinget gue kyknya baruuuuu aja kemaren gue jadi anak kelas 7. sumpah gak kerasa. dan jaman dulu itu, gue selalu mikir 'gila. gak betah gue di sekolah kyk gini!!! pengen pindaaaah' ato 'aelah temen2nya gak asik banget, demi' tapi lama-lama gue sadar betapa bersyukurnya gue sekolah disini. gue juga suka mikir kalo sekolah gue alay bat. tapi.....setelah diliat2 lagi, koreksi sana-sini, gak juga kok. gak alay. mungkin anak2 gaul bakal bilang emang anak2 Tartig alay, tp sekrang gue udah gapernah mikir kalo sekolah gue, temen2 gue, adek2 kelas gue, dll itu alay. gue udah terlalu sayang sekolah gue untuk blg kalo sekolah gue alay dan emang gue juga alay kok WKWKWK :D

Jujur2an nih, dulu gue BENCI banget sekolah gue. serius, benci banget! tapi setelah gue pikir2, Tartig itu......ASIK. emangsih kadang suka rusuh, guru2nya kadang nyebelin, temen2nya suka banyak masalah, blablabla tapi menurut gue kalo gue gak disekolahin disitu, entah gue jadi anak kyk apa. entah gue ikut pergaulan yang kyk apa. entah gue jadi kyk apa andai gue gak sekolah di Tartig.

Sekarang gue kelas 9. baru sekarang kerasa betapa gue sayang banget sama sekolah gue. bentar lagi pisah padahal gue baru ngerasain asik2nya temen gue, baik2nya guru gue, enak2nya jadi kakak kelas, dll. udah gitu sekarang temen main gue gak cuma itu-itu aja. sekarang temen gue banyak karena baru disini gue gak pilih2 temen. padahl pas sd gue.....BAH pilih2 banget. ampe kesel kalo flashback sd wkwk

Gue sadar, gue skrg kyk gini karena sekolah disini. karena kenalan sama temen2 gue disini. karena diajarin guru2 gue disini. demi apapun gue sangat bersyukur sekolah di Tartig:)

This year sucks.

HEY!!! ho lama gak ngepost nih. ada yang kangen gak ada gak ada gaaaaaaaak?^o^

Well, mau share dong hari ini. hari ini udah hampir mmmm 3 minggu apa 4 minggu masuk sekolah ya? ya whatever intinya udah masuk. dan sekarang gue kelas 9. KELAS 9 WOY. gue gatau kenapa waktu berjalan begitu cepat. kalo diinget lagi, kyknya baru kemaren gue di-mos. kyknya baru kmrn rok gue panjang karena takut sama kakak2 kelas. kyknya baru kmrn kelas gue di lantai 1. gatau kenapa ah pokoknya cepet banget. WUSH.

Actually, i don't hate the fact that im a ninth grader now. being a ninth grader rules. i'm a senior now. but i just hate the fact that this year im going to have a national examination. i hate the fact i have to study my butt off. i hate the fact i can't goof around in school anymore. i need to concentrate on my studies. that means no more internet. no more tv. no more hanging out. no more anything!!! ngelepas rutinitas pulang sekolah gue aja susah HU. pulang->nntn tv->online->mandi->online->tidur. hu sekarang mesti gini. pulang->intensif->mandi->les->belajar->tidur. ADUUUUH sampe skrg aja gue gabisa nururt sama jadwal plg sklh gue apalagi mesti merubah rutinitas hidup gue?!?!?!?

Gue mau nem tinggi. gue mau masuk 78. eh nono, gue PERLU masuk 78. kata nyokap gue kalo gue gak masuk 78, gue bakal di sekolahin di boarding school. gue gamau masa2 SMA gue suram di boarding school. no way. hu jadi gimana nih? :----( GALAU.

money $_$

Hello,people,readers,or whatever. not a friendly greeting,eh?maaf lagi galau~

Seperti anak-anak sekolahan lainnya, gua lagi libur. and do you know what that means? gue bakal menghabiskan banyak duit. dan sehubungan gue lg bokek dan pelit ngeluarin duit, gue dilema. gue perlu banget duit,serius. im not being needy, im just being.....oh i dont know i just need money okay?!sebenernya gue juga gatau kenapa gue ngebet banget punya duit soalnya selama-lamanya liburan, gue pergi juga paling seminggu 3 kali doang. tp tp tp im a human and i have needs!

Gue sempet bilang ke temen gue, Rara tentang masalah ini. dia menyarankan gue ikut Gong Show.....but that's obviously impossible karena gue gak punya bakat yang extraordinary-_-okay terus tiba-tiba gue keinget sama temen gue dulu, dia sempet nampang si satu episode sinteron dan dibayar mahal. gue langsung terpikat sama ide itu. disamping gampang, dapet duit banyak. okeoke gue tau im not show-biz material tapi im not that bad! gue lebay....in a good way cs FTV's are usually kinda lebay. soooo, i have a plus side^^

Gue sama Rara udah mulai merencanakan plan pertama kita dan gak akan gue tulis disini karena bakal membongkar segalanya :b nah what im doing right now is actually doing my plan B, karena plan A kita agak-agak tidak memungkinkan-_-jadilah disini, saya membuka google dan mengetik keyword 'cara cepat jadi artis' dan di tab baru 'casting iklan sinetron 2010'. it's silly, i know and i figured that out even before i typed that keyword. gue udah nyoba liat-liat hasilnya.....and guess what?they give big bucks! ada yang cuma main di iklan ****** dan dapet 45juta. ANJIRRRR gue juga mau gila.

Tapi abis gue pikir-pikir, gak mungkin newbie kayak gua langsung dapet peran kyk gitu, apalagi gaji kyk gitu. jadi gue nyari-nyari yang bakal tergapai, yaitu pemain figuran. tapi pas gue cari-cari gada sinetron yang lg casting ato nyari pemain, jadi pupuslah harapan gue main sinetron. nah, here's what i found out. ternyata Orang Ketiga nyari figuran...........tp gue gamau. gengsi parah gua masuk begituan walaupun bayarannya tinggi. harga diri bakal jatooooh, no offense lho bagi yang bikin Orang Ketiga~so, my plan B failed.

So, maksud gue bikin post ini sih sebenernya ada 2. pertama curcol, kedua bagi yang punya kenalan/sodara/bapak/ibu yang produser, works in show-biz ato apa kasih tau gue ya-_-makaci. btw kalo pada ilfil sama gue abis baca post ini....gue gak ngalahin kok HAHAHAHAHA but keep reading my blog :D ta-ta

50 and forever.

HEYA! as i promised blog gue bakal banyak postnya gara-gara liburan :) a little opening, i found a really addictive song. i can't stop listening to it!!! i just downloaded it this morning tapi play countnya udah............64-_-mau tau lagunya apa?ask me kalo berminat wkwk

Well okay. seperti yang ada di post dibawah, gue sempet bilang kalo waktu itu eyang gue bakal ulang tahun perkawinan emas (50 tahun). and yes, udah terlaksana kok minggu kemaren yang teaptnya tanggal 13 Juni 2010. im not gonna talk about preparations of the even cs its a looooong story, trust me. jadi ke hari h-nya aja langsung.

Pas hari minggu kemaren, acara eyang gue dilaksanakan di Hotel Sari Pan Pacific, Jakarta. keluarga besar gue udah dateng disana jam 8an soalnya mau gladi resik dulu. gue sama saudara-saudara gue bajunya kembaran, yang cewek pake dress batik pink-kuning yang cowok pake kemeja batik. om-om sama tante-tante gue juga bajunya kembaran, but no tante sama om kembarannya gak sama-_-have i told you this? my cousins and i will sing for my grandparents! thats why we came early, to rehearse.

Acaranya sebenernya dimulai jam 11 dan pas jam segitu eyang gue udah dateng to greet their guests. but something really creepy happened. liftnya suka dateng dari bawah dan kebuka sendiri padahal gada yang mencet.....mungkin ada yang mau dateng kali ya :) well abis itu acara dimulai deh trus sambutan-sambutan gitu. trus akhirnya giliran nyanyi tiba!!!tp ternyata lancar and everyone loved it! especially my grandparents.

Langsung aja ke acara terakhnirnya, sambutan dari eyang gue sambil pelepasan(?) buku. buku apa? buku ummm buku apa ya bilangnya?its a short autobiography of my grandparents' love life, career, family, etc. i've read it and it was really interesting cs it was written separately. i could see some pros and contras. but what i thought when i was reading that book was : OMG. my grandparents lived together for 50 years. 50 darn years. while a lot of people, including me can't even stay in a steady relationship-_-i know its 2 different things, a relationship and marriage but still........So, i would like to give a thousand thumbs up for couples that stay together for 50yeras or more :) it's not an easy thing to maintain a marriage. so, bravo!

And lastly, Happy 50year Wedding Anniversary, Grandma&Grandpa♥

Tutup Tahun 2010

HELLO! taundak?kemaren, hari yang selalu gue nanti-nanti tiba; TUTUP TAUN. kenapa dinanti-nanti? soalnya pengen pake dress ke sekolah HAHA penting?woh penting banget dund.

Buat tutup taun kali ini, temanya Black-White-Masks. buat gue, dari yang taun lalu sih kerenan dan asikan taun ini gatau kenapa. apa mungkin pas hari itu si doi ganteng banget ato gimana gue gak ngerti deh-_-Nah pertama-tama kemaren itu misa tutup taun dulu, agak boring dan kaki gue kesemutan like crazy!!!abis itu anak-anak SMP disuruh masuk 'aula' a.k.a ruang kelas 7A yang disambung sama 7B.

kira-kira begitulah dekorasinya, and a touch of air conditioning.

Abis semuanya masuk, OSIS disuruh ke panggung nyanyi Mars Tarakanita sama Mars OSIS dan gue masih leyeh-leyeh duduk di bawah tanpa tau gue sebenernya harus ke panggang. jadilah gua OSIS terakhir yang masuk panggung. abis itu sambutan-sambutan, penampila kelas, blablabla. diantara 'blablabla' itu ada acara pembacaan pemenang nominasi. and the winners are:

TERCANTIK : Kak Anika
TERGANTENG : Andrew
TERBAIK : Kak Christine sama Kevin Lee
TERFAVORIT : Kak Kadek sama Irvin
TERPINTER : Kak Nania sama Aldo
DUA FAVO: Kak Citra sama Kak Anika

Selamat lagi buat yang menang yaaa :)

Gue sempet bangga dikit sama video yang gue buat buat tutup taun yang dimainin pas agak terakhir2 acara. walaupun banyak technical difficulties tp akhirnya bisa di play juga. the video got a lot of responses, good ones. sampe-sampe ada yang minta video itu, tp gue gak bolehin. soalnya gue pikir-pikir, they say the video's special so they want it but what makes it special is they only got to watch it once.

And at last, penampilan band. semua orang sangat menanti2 penampilan band p-man. pas mereka main aja hebohnya gila-gilaan, pada berdiri loncat2 nyanyi2 sampe ada yang gendong2an. mereka bawain kalogaksalah 3 lagu and every song was really catchy, no wonder everycody ssang and danced :D

random

kay, i found out recently that someone's been reading my blog quite frequently HAHA sorry,pal i just had to tell it to everyone c: sehubungan dengan itu, dalam bbrp bulan ini, masalah semakin banyak dan cerita menggunung. maaph gak pernah nge-post...agak males ngetik~

pertama-tama, school's (almost) out!!!need to scream and shout. ulangan umum yang jahanam itu akhirnya selesai juga. tp giliran selesai, masalah malah menumpuk hhhh....oh well, belom ditakdirkan untuk nyantai hikzzz. trustrustruuuuuuus, dengan menambahnya maslah baru masalah lama jadi hilang jadi ada plus sidenya juga HAHA gakdeng maunya aku hidup dengan aman dan tentram tanpa masalah,AMIN. semua doain gua yak(plus yang terlibat dalam malasah ini) :)

TERUSSSS, kan mau liburan nih.....aku mau pergipergi jalanjalan sama tementemen. pengen karokean banget. pas ulum gue ngidam banget karokean, apalagi pas gue baru menyadari pesona hits pop indonesia. aku menyadari betapa kerennya lagu2 wali dan radja. ngidambgtgilak. ohya!!!trus pengen ke dufan, pengen berenang, PGN NGINEP. trus sekelas gitu huhuhuhu ohya jadi inget 8A :c uuuuuuuu gamau pisaaaaah!!!!8A udah melekat di hatiku~

ohiyaaaaaa, aku cinta Meliana Pranita. dia pintar sekali. dia juara 2 olimpiade mat se tarakanita. anak mama udah gede :') KASIH SELAMAT KE DIA YA PLENDSSSS!

karena judul post ini aja random, cerita2nya gak nyambung gakpapa yachhhh. OHYA aku lupa terus bikin post jogja blablabla huhuhu masih males ngetik gmn dong-_-pokoknya segera deh,(agak) janji!! and karena bakal menganggur lama jadi insyallah blog gue rame dengan post.

btw bntr lg 50thn perkawinan eyang gue. tanggal 13Jun09, kasih selamat ya ke mereka :) okay.that's all for now papai

dufan!

hello people! we went to jogja part 2 will be posted soon :)P but first, i wanna tell ya about my 'trip' to dufan with my elementary school friends.

liburan UAN kelas 9 sangat membosankan. tadinya rencana mau reuni sama temen2 sd tp kok males dan mendadak banget ya? jadi pada suatu hari gue sms cut. (c:cut, f:feria)
f: cut dufan yuk-_-
c: yukkk!!!mau banget. kapan?
f: kapan aja deh yang pada bisa!!
c: kamis?jumat? gue gakbisa senin rabu.
f: kapan aja deh!!!
dan blablabla masih panjang.

dan jadilah hari selasa gue ke dufan bareng cut, farina, ganis, emil. unyu kangen banget sama ganis yang gak ketemua sama gua setaun lebih. oke lanjut. disana fun sekali. tp baru main 3 wahana(EYA) ujan gitudeeee. jadi kita makan mcd. trus pas cut mau cuci tangan tiba2 ada embak2 yang duduk di tempatnya........awkward. yaudah deh jadi kita lanjut ke perang bintang. pas nyampe sana, depannya banjir gitu semata kaki wkwk. pas nyampe di dalem sepiiiiiii banget. puteran pertama sih kita nembak2 beneraan, trus pas puteran kedua sama ketiga(kita minta tiga kali nonstop lho) kita foto-foto di dalem sambil ngadem. abis itu kita udahan deh, kasian udah mulai rame HOHO

abis itu mumpung udah gerimis, kita main arung jeram. karena gue males ganti baju jadi gue beli jas ujan gaul warna biru terbuat dari plastik murahan seharga Rp 13.500,- TRENDY LHO tadinya mau beli shower cap biar tambah fashionable tp.....gk makasih deh ;D sambil nunggu ngantre arung jeram, gue sama cutsarah nyanyi2 kpop dan mengganggu org2 sekitar. pas giliran kita, kita bertujuh sama pasangan bahagia yang pake couple tee's yang cewek: i heart my boyf, yang cowok: i heart my girlf. romantis.

karena udah selesai ujan, jadi kita naik pontang2 ato apalah yang berfungsi ganda. jadi hairdryer sama for fun. ganis, emil sama farina nekat mau duduk sendiri2(sedangkan gue sama cut ttp jadi pasangan bahagia) padahal gue udah tau pasti bakal dipindahin-_-dan akhirnya benar! emil disuruh sama ganis dan farina.........sama cowok entah siapa. gue sama cut ngakak ngata2in farina sama cowoknya. paling heboh gue sama cut gara2 ngata2in mereka berdua WKWK maafkan kami farina!!!! pas turun, ternyata pacar ceweknya marah sama kita berdua jadi kita ngacir :p

abis itu kita main macem2 soalnya udah selesai ujan,HORAS. trus terakhir kita main kora2 trus ketemu si cowok antah berantah HAHA gue udah parno mau dilabrak aja-_-kita naik kora2 sampe 2 apa 3 kali gitu. alhasil, gue hampir muntah wkwk oke trus kita makan dan lain2 dan akhirnya pulang deeeech.

FOTONYA COMING SOON :)

we went to jogja(part 2)

Okay, sorry it took soo long to make part 2 :B i was super busy with...........stuffs. okay so in part two, im gonna tell you about my 2 day trip all around Jogja. enjoy :)

Hari pertama di Jogja.....not so interesting. it rained most of the time so we were wet all the time. but at the end of the day, it was fun. we went to Malioboro. disana kita belanja-belinji(rara mode on) pas nyampe di Malioboro ujan dan yang bawa payung terbatas sekali. jadi yang bawa, bakal dipalak sama 'teman-temannya' salah satu contohnya gue. gue bawa payung, tp dipalak sama anak-anak cowok. tega ya~tapi gue gak diam begitu saja, akhirnya gue ikut payungan(baca: maksa ikut payungan) jadinya gue sama jordi geraldo payungan bertiga trus rara dibelakang sama siapaya?lupa, MAAFBRO HAHA!!! tapi walaupun gue payungan, ttp aja gue basah kuyup sampe Malioboro. akhirnya gue keatasin posi gue dan gue nguncir rambut. alhasil gue kayak emang-emang. trus kita belanja-belanja sambil basah2an. tp sero kok!!!tadinya gue sama rara bareng cowok2 tp males jadi akhirnya nunggu yang cewek2 deh. sambil nunggu, we shopped! ternyata ketemu sama pasangan bahagia kezya-danan-dimas(?) akhirnya kita belanja berlima deh.

Pas udah malem, akhirnya kita makaan!!!di Malioboro, kita makan di KFC soalnya gada tempat makan lain yang (maaf)bersih dan luaaaaaas. ternyata kita makan bareng anak-anak tarpat eh apa tardu ya?bodolah yang penting tarakanita juga-_-trus pada ngerusuh abisan anak tartig diomongin2 gitu.......krik. abis makan kita ngelanjutin belanja. gakdeng udah pada teler wkwk trus kita ketemu sama si *beep* yang mampusnya gada temen tp akhirnya kita temenin SOALNYA KITA TEMAN YANG BAIK. trus gue, rara, junita beli tas kulit samaan gitude. murah lagi, cuma 50ribu!!!

Karena udah teler(padahal baru jam 7-_-) jadi gue, rara, junita, sama siapalagi ya?oops lups~ya intinya kita balik ke bus dan ternyata busnya pengep banget plus supirnya lagi ngegossip sambil bertelanjang dada hiii......trus kita bergossip deh sambil nungguin yang lainnya. tapi ternyata kita sia-sia nunggu disitu soalnya baliknya baru jam 9. tadinya pada mau naik delman keliling2 tp gakjadi2 padahal gue udah semangat uuwuwuw jadi akhirnya pada ke mall deh....ohplis mall lagi mall lagi trus pada karokean(katanyaaa) tp gue sama rara gak ikut. kita sibuk main sama bus(???) tp serius, kita main sama bus-_-

Tapi setelah penantian lama, akhirnya kita balik ke hotel. fiuhhhh tp hell abis kamera gue tiba-tiba rusak.....OH NASIB~trussss ternyata pas nyampe hotel setelah teler belanja, malah ada kejadian yang ada di post gue yang jogja part 1(read it and weep!). ukay and that's our first day traveling in Jogja. nantikan part 3 yaaa :D

we went to jogja! (part 1)

HEYA im back from jogja, baby! sekolah gue karyawisata tanggal 15-19 februari 2010. yang ikut kalogasalah 77 siswa plus 6 pembimbing. kesana naik 2 bus symphony. and what-so-ever. oke bakal ada bbrp post ttg pas gue ke jogja soalnya 1 post doang gabakal puas nyeritainnya haha ini part pertama tentang kamar hotel gue yang sangatsangat superduper creepy.

rombongan gue nginep di Hotel Brongto. pertama kali gue ke hotel itu malem-malem jadi kerasa banget horrornya. katanya sih hotel itu bekas rumah bangsawan tp who knows. hotelnya bukan hotel bertingkat. hotelnya terdiri dari beberapa bungalow dan satu bangunan bertingkat 2 yang kurang lebih ada 40 kamar disitu. dan rombongan gue nginep di bangunan bertingkat itu, di lantai 2nya.

gue dapet kamar 219, kamar paling pojok. dan gue sekamar sama rara, kezya sama junita. pertama kali kita sampe kamar, kita semua nganga soalnya dapet kamar paling pojok, paling serem, dan paling gede. struktur kamar kita juga beda sendiri. malem pertama sih kita cuek-cuek aja soalnya malem itu rame banget. tapi malem kedua disitu malem yang paling serem.

hari kedua di jogja kita pulang ga begitu malem soalnya pemberhentian terakhir kita di malioboro. kita balik ke hotel jam 9an dan nyampe jam stgh 10. gue sama rara balik ke kamar paling akhir, kita misah sama junita&kezya. tp pas kita naik tangga, kamar gue rameeee banget. junita lari-lari trus cerita ke gue. katanya pas dia baru masukin kunci ke bolongan(ini belom diputer sama sekali) tiba-tiba pintunya kebuka sendiri. kamar gelap tp ada orang disitu pake baju putih. pas pintu kebuka si 'orang putih' langsung ngibrit. kata temen gue, sebelom pintu kamar gue dibuka, ada 'orang putih' jalan dari tangga trus jalan masuk ke kamar gue. abis denger itu, spnotan gue lari ke kamar. langsung deh kita beres2in kamar. kita ngambil kesimpulan si setan marah soalnya kamar gue berantakan.

si 'orang putih' ternyata juga suka ikutan tidur bareng kita haha kamar kita ada 4 kasur tp yang dipake cuma 2 soalnya kita takut. nah yang 2 ga kepake suka ditempatin 'orang putih'.

di kamar mandi gue juga ada tuh. pas malem pertama, kan yang mandi cuma junita trus dia yakin banget sabun cairnya dia tutup tp pas pagi-paginya ada genangan sabun cair banyak banget. tp anehnya sabun cairnya berdiri. badan sabun cairnya juga bersih. kalo jatoh kan harusnya ada bekas sabun cairnya trus harusnya posisinya tidur kan?CREEPY.....

ada banyak cerita lagi, tp yang lain gausah diceritain deh. wait for part 2 yaaa :)

curhat 2

heya! it's been 3 days since you-know-what and guess what? i lived!

trying to forget someone is torture. i know everyone must've gone through this. and i've been through this a couple of times. but hey, it's still hard for me. for the past 2days, i can't even stop thinking about him, seriously-_- i know, i know im soooo pathetic right? but today, i actually stopped liking him! even my friends say i actually smiled, and not fake smiled. i actually laughed, not fake laughed! wow! that's a new record i actually stop liking someone after 3days woohoo

ohyeah he sent me a message a couple of days ago. but im not sure what he wrote on that message. im not gonna tell what he wrote, it's privacy :p

im still wondering how's he doing. well, he's obviously avoiding me so we didn't get in touch after we broke up(except that message thing he sent). im really hoping he's fine. and healthy. and happy, of course.

well okay. this is my last post for him. and maybe the last time im gonna talk about him. e-v-e-r. so, goodbye you! :)

curhat

heeeey! ohmyGod it's been sooo long since i actually posted a new post haha well today i'll break my promise on never talking about my lovelife again.

well, you see, i started dating again. it became official on November 5th 2009. i actually trusted this guy. i really did trust him, even though our relationship was a long-distance-relationship kinda thing.

our first month together was like a fairytale or drama's or whatever. it's like he has powers to make me fall in love with him. but things changed. he changed.

our second month together.......was horrible. i started to doubt him. i even wanted to break up with him, a couple of times. but i thought it would hurt him if i did actually break up with him. but even when i was thinking of his feelings, he didn't even thought about mine. he wrote on twitter that he wanted a perfect girlfriend. he wanted a pretty girlfriend. and even said that why couldn't he have a perfect girlfriend like 'her'? yeah. it tore me apart. it was like someone ripped my heart out and sliced it into little pieces.

it was really ironic, actually. i never even cared what he looked like, or how tall he is, or how rich and handsome he is. even though my friends keep telling me how weird it is that we're going out, i never even cared, at all. but he cared. he cared about how pretty i was, how smart i was, how rich i was, and how PERFECT i was, while i don't even fit those criterias.

if you want a pretty girlfriend, than don't be with me.
if you want a rich girlfriend, than i'm not that girl.
if you want a smart girlfriend, than you've got the wrong girl.
and if you want a perfect girlfriend, it means you don't even love me the way i am.

i didn't write this to make you look bad. all i'm saying is : i hope you find that girl. that PERFECT girl you've been dreaming of. i'm only wishing you luck :)