curhat 2

heya! it's been 3 days since you-know-what and guess what? i lived!

trying to forget someone is torture. i know everyone must've gone through this. and i've been through this a couple of times. but hey, it's still hard for me. for the past 2days, i can't even stop thinking about him, seriously-_- i know, i know im soooo pathetic right? but today, i actually stopped liking him! even my friends say i actually smiled, and not fake smiled. i actually laughed, not fake laughed! wow! that's a new record i actually stop liking someone after 3days woohoo

ohyeah he sent me a message a couple of days ago. but im not sure what he wrote on that message. im not gonna tell what he wrote, it's privacy :p

im still wondering how's he doing. well, he's obviously avoiding me so we didn't get in touch after we broke up(except that message thing he sent). im really hoping he's fine. and healthy. and happy, of course.

well okay. this is my last post for him. and maybe the last time im gonna talk about him. e-v-e-r. so, goodbye you! :)

curhat

heeeey! ohmyGod it's been sooo long since i actually posted a new post haha well today i'll break my promise on never talking about my lovelife again.

well, you see, i started dating again. it became official on November 5th 2009. i actually trusted this guy. i really did trust him, even though our relationship was a long-distance-relationship kinda thing.

our first month together was like a fairytale or drama's or whatever. it's like he has powers to make me fall in love with him. but things changed. he changed.

our second month together.......was horrible. i started to doubt him. i even wanted to break up with him, a couple of times. but i thought it would hurt him if i did actually break up with him. but even when i was thinking of his feelings, he didn't even thought about mine. he wrote on twitter that he wanted a perfect girlfriend. he wanted a pretty girlfriend. and even said that why couldn't he have a perfect girlfriend like 'her'? yeah. it tore me apart. it was like someone ripped my heart out and sliced it into little pieces.

it was really ironic, actually. i never even cared what he looked like, or how tall he is, or how rich and handsome he is. even though my friends keep telling me how weird it is that we're going out, i never even cared, at all. but he cared. he cared about how pretty i was, how smart i was, how rich i was, and how PERFECT i was, while i don't even fit those criterias.

if you want a pretty girlfriend, than don't be with me.
if you want a rich girlfriend, than i'm not that girl.
if you want a smart girlfriend, than you've got the wrong girl.
and if you want a perfect girlfriend, it means you don't even love me the way i am.

i didn't write this to make you look bad. all i'm saying is : i hope you find that girl. that PERFECT girl you've been dreaming of. i'm only wishing you luck :)